The BIG spiritual experience

When I was on my deathbed in March 2020, for reasons at which you can probably guess, I couldn't breathe. I was alone. I'd left it too late to call an ambulance. Oxygen was no longer reaching my blood. I had minutes to live.  

Anyway, as I began losing consciousness, I released my family and friends in my mind. I released the material world. I made myself ready to meet my Creator. 

I felt no fear. I felt no regret. Do not make life decisions based on what podcast bros tell you you'll feel on your deathbed. They don't know, and they're wrong. 

As I began to leave my body, I became aware of a spirit in the room.

I looked at the end of the bed and saw a 'ghost', but it was me. 

She/I was holding up a plan for a community I had not built, and said: "Can you at least ask?"

Knowing I had only seconds left, I desperately thought of what could be meant by that. I felt the 'ghost' was my ego or earth-bound self and she wanted me to ask to stay here to fulfil my purpose.

I knew that the next words I thought would need to be swift and decisive or I'd be gone. 

I thought these words:

Dear Lord God,

Make me a channel for your Peace and your Power. 

Breathe life into me,

That I may breathe life into others,

That they may breathe life into their dreams,

And manifest them on the planet,

By Thy Will.

In the next second I could breathe. 

A few things happened after this. 

For one thing, God was with me 24/7 for about 20 months. 

For another, He began to introduce me to the idea of the Divine Feminine, and showed me Her energetically at His side. She began to work with me to improve my health (I had the long version of the condition) and also to help me understand the reasons for certain events in my life.

Then I was given the opportunity to become a channel for Her Wisdom, which was frankly a bit scary.

Where I'd been connected with God in that way since childhood, and my spiritual healing was done by channelling the Holy Spirit with Christ's guidance, I was still me through all that.

Channelling Divine Feminine works differently. She speaks through me. If you've ever seen Abraham Hicks, it's a little like that. 

I spent a huge amount of time praying about this, and God kept showing me visions of a space beside Him that I was not honouring.

So one day, I went for it. And it was amazing. She was able to help someone who'd been completely lost in the darkness to see their true self and make a commitment to changing their ways.

It turned out that She had worked with me before, but always in dangerous situations. I felt as if it was a hidden badass part of myself stepping in to save me, but it was Her. 

After four years of consciously working with Her, I now have ways to help people that are deeper than they've ever experienced before. Profoundly life-changing in many cases.